A little bit of this and that

zachira

finally decided to write a real blog.



The best and most effective advice I have recieved this week is:

I'm starting to hate the person I'm becoming right now. Confused. Inconsistent. Hardheaded. Emotional(not EMO!), And a complete JERK. I couldn't even stick to my own decision. I don't know who to trust anymore. There were people who I admired before and have high respect but now I don't know. Naglaho na. I'm really becoming HOPELESS. It's really best not to think about it. Hahaha! The best moments I have experienced these past few weeks were busy hours studying(promise!), days spent with my family, and 3-hour trip back home. Because these are the moments where I don't have time to think about it/them/that. Honestly I don't know why this is happening to me. It's really getting in my nerves, its so annoying, and I'm starting to really really hate it, Im starting to ABHOR it! hahaha! Ok, hoping I'll get over this.(soon)

One week to go and summer is OVER! 5 more exams to go, and bakasyon na! I'm supposed to be studying right now and supposed to be I shouldve started it a few hours back, but NO! hahahaha! I'll regret this tomorrow for sure. hahaha!

Quitting is not at all so bad right? I mean it depends on what your reasons are for quitting,  right? (sigh) I really need someone to talk to. Someone who would not give me advices like "kaya mo yan", "go lang ng go", "carry lang yan", "supportahantaka" blah blah! I hear them everytime and I'm sick of these advices, they're meaningless, useless, I don't and I never sensed the sincerity of these words.

Hindi ko kayang magpanggap na ok lang ang lahat, ang bigat sa kalooban. At mas lalong hindi ko kayang magpaggap na masaya ako sa mga nangyayari. Hindi talaga.


<SIGH>

Ok when this is over, mapapa CHEESE BURGER ako!

I'll just NOT think about it, (even w/o eating ice cream) hehehe , right? YES, I guess that's the best thing to do at the moment.




"You don't have to accept a destiny you don't want"

-naruto to shion | NARUTO MOVIE 4

zachira

...can one change when he only wants to be himself?