November 6th, 2009
part of me that I want to change
WAAH! Lumindol! only for about 2 seconds, and you won't notice it, unless you're sitting still or looking at a cup of water on a table. Anyway it happened a couple of times before.
I'm at BOSTON Cafe, savoring their free internet service, unfortunately I left my charger at the dorm! I still have at most 2 hours till the battery's out. I'm actually waiting for someone. One of my orgmates actually, he's gonna copy some episodes of bleach.
I'm going to Makati today, because I don't want to see nor hear James. Yeah that's the main reason. :D But when I come back, I'll be enduring his very presence for the next couple of months. Its kinda like torture. But I'll get over it, hopefully, I'll get tired of running away. Maybe, he too, maybe he'll get tired hating me too.
I've been trying to escape. I'm like an escape artist. I'm able to escape from them for a few days now. I stay away from them. Well maybe sembreak hasn't given me enough time and space to move on and get over it. So I've given myself until my birthday. Then I'll have to face them again, only this time, I'm not sure if I'll ever be the same again or if we'll ever be the same again. All I'm sure is, I don't want to hurt them again.
What a sem it has been. I'm the reason why everything is like this. I keep on torturing myself. I could give advice to anyone who seems like me. I easily get annoyed with anyone who seems like me. But I never know how to stop being me. This the part of me that I want to change, that needs changing.