A little bit of this and that

Back to college again. SIGH. And it's not AS anymore.. ssshhiiiettttt. I so don't wanna study Econs and Math again ;_;

But I can't wait for THIS FRIDAY! I might be meeting up with Steph unnie to watch Ninja Assassin 8DDD!! Wooo so much Rain and Joon goodness >:D But I don't know if I can stand the violence in that movie ㅠㅠ We'll see. Gosh I've so much fangirling to do with her but that babo hasn't been online for days and I've to rot coz no one to talk to OMG even JINN HASN'T BEEN ONLINE. WHERE YOU PEOPLE WENT LAAA!! T_______T THE MAMA PERFORMANCESSSS! AND AWARDS. C'MON DDD8!!! (But I know Steph unnie has been marathon-ing "You're Beautiful" kdrama LOL)

2PM won best artist of the year, that's just fucking awesome! All the more Jae should just come back. THEY SO DESERVE IT OKAY. ALL HATERS TO THE LEFT! D8<

Chansung: Jaebum hyung, you're watching this right? Saranghae.

*HEART GETS PIERCED, MELT & DIED, SOMEHOW REVIVED & DIED AGAIN!!!!*
 

Btw I SERIOUSLY think Kpop made Lester gay HAHAHAHA.

 - yυмι ♥ parkjaebum says (9:57 PM): omg la i so geram she kept touching him asjdhajdkasdhaskds how can he let an old aunty touch him?

(was talking about Ivy and Nickhun's performance on MAMA. She was being all touchy!!)

Lesтεя 8 ] says (9:57 PM): YES AH MAHAI

- yυмι ♥ parkjaebum says (9:57 PM): YALA WTF U MAHAI AHAHAHA

Lesтεя 8 ] says (9:57 PM): I ALSO WANNA TOUCH HIM LOR

- yυмι ♥ parkjaebum says (9:57 PM): WTF

But I can 't blame him since, Nickhun is so freaking lovable ;_; Even to guys LOL. Don't get me started on how Lester fanboy-ed Lee Byung Hun... HAHAHAHAHA! *Died*

URGHRGURGHURHUG!! THIS IS IVY SEDUCING KHUN T_T I damn beh syok when I saw this. But somehow I didn't mind it when Baek Ji Young and Taec were at it. Somehow. STILL, DONT PLAY WITH OUR INNOCENT THAI BOY, NICKHUN ;___;

Sigh college tomorrowww I don't wanna face lecturers againnnn. AND YES MABEL, WE HAVE THAT FREAKING MATH TEST. MR TAN SO HATE US 8D~~! I can barely remember what I learned for second semester since we're all too busy with AS studies -_____- Blame me or their stupid system? D: Ok, me.

I'll probably eat pan mee with Xinyi and the rest. I MISS IT SFM. I'm kinda hungry now. Sigh. I'll go watch Starking now then off to bed. OH Christine is finally coming back from UK tomorrow. Welcome back to Malaysia man :D

Steph unnie if you're reading this, you totally owe me lotsa fangirling moments... T^T I ALREADY DREAMT OF US ATTENDING A.N.JELL'S FANSIGNING EVENT OK!!!! *kicks steph* D8<

잘자 ♥

red-veronika

I should be preparing my stuff for the three-day retreat. I already fixed my closet.. I organized my clothes and stuff. I couldn't decide on what to bring. It's Tagaytay, I know, but I want to wear something sleeveless then have some jacket over. I'm going to bring an extra pair of shoes and rubber slippers. Socks = must. I cannot survive if my feet are exposed to low temperature. I love the cold but.. cold feet? :3

Important thing that I should bring? My medicine pouch containing iron supplements and Advil. Seriously, if I get a headache, all hell will break loose. I don't like events with crowds, que horror.

I am trying not to panic. My thesis is.. zero. Nothing is happening. It feels like I'm the only one with thesis in mind. I guess, it's time for me to step-up.. :/

Oh dear. Downstairs, my sister is teasing our kid brother. Kiddie crush thing is cute but..

gemini

...literally and figuratively.

Literally:
Pauwi na kami ng blockmate ko, sabay kaming naglalakad pababa ng stairs, nang biglang parang may nagflash sa utak ko na para bang baka matapilok ako. Then in a snap, nahulog ako sa stairs. Totoo. Ang saklap pa ng pagkahulog ko; head first. Na-shock lahat ng taong nakakita. Basta ang alam ko lang paharap ako nahulog. Siyempre yung kasama ko sumigaw, then tinignan kung nagdugo ulo ko. Thank God hindi naman.

Kaso ang sakit ng bukol ko. Sana walang internal bleeding. Please.

Hindi ko rin talaga maalala kung bakit ako nalaglag. Hindi ko sure kung natapilok ba ako or nawalan ng balance. Ang tanging naaalala ko lang ay nung tapos na ko masubsob. Grabe. Ang tragic.

Major humiliation. Yung mga naka-saksi, nagkumpulan dun. Habang nakahawak ako sa right side ng noo ko, naka-cover yung mukha ko ng buhok ko. Sinadya ko yun. Alam kong di nila ako kilala, pero siyempre ayoko naman pag nakasalubong nila ko, malalaman nilang ako yung tangang nahulog sa stairs. Puro "shocks" rin ang naririnig ko mula sa mga babae. Sabi ko sa kasama ko, umalis na kami, as in magmadali na. Nahihiya na kasi ako. Gusto ko lang makawala sa center of attention.

Ang masaklap pa dito, may gasgas ako sa tuhod. Edi pumunta kami sa UST Health Service. Anak naman ng tipaklong, ang bumulaga sakin ay "Sorry, we're closed." Pano na kapag nabasag ulo ko? Pano na pag mas malala pa dun ang nangyari?

Dumiretso naman kami sa Emergency ng UST Hospital. Aba naman, porket wala silang nakikitang dugo, walang nag-a-approach! Mukha lang naman akong tanga dun for 5 minutes, hindi ko alam kung sinong kakausapin ko. Then nung may in-explain yung lalaki dun dahil minor injury lang ang natamo ko, umalis nalang ako. KAHIT MAN LANG COLD COMPRESS, BETADINE AT BAND-AID DI MAN LANG NILA BINIGAY!

Malas pa nito kasi pag-uwe ko, a-attend pa ko ng debut.

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Figuratively:
Nasa debut na 'ko. Hindi ako nagpadala sa sugat at bukol ko sa ulo. Dazzling pa rin ako. (Yuck! LOL) Basta nung una, naligaw-ligaw pa kami as in.

Anyway, ok na sana ako e. Di ko alam invited din pala si past (yung kalandian ko nung HS na hindi naman naging kami, basta MU lang at siya ang dahilan ng mga kantang nagagawa ko before. Boohoo) at yung present niya. Oha. Na-shock lang naman ako. Well, supposedly okay na sakin. Okay naman talaga, awkward lang kasi hindi ako kinakausap nung girl. Sabagay bat naman niya ko kakausapin? Pero kung kinausap niya ko, hindi naman ako ganun ka-sama para dedmahin siya, irapan siya or worse sabunutan and gumawa ng iskandalo na dapat ako ang present ni past at hindi siya 'no. So ayun, natahimik lang ako bigla. Kasi pati 'tong kasama ko kinausap siya, e hindi pa naman dumating ang iba kong friends kaya wala na kong ibang ka-close dun.

Supposedly hindi ko yun dapat mararamdaman. Alin? Ewan, basta masakit sa mata. Hirap pa rin akong tignan siya. Kahit kinalabit niya ko para mag-hi--siyempre nag-hi rin ako--ang awkward pa rin talaga sakin! Bat ba hindi ko maramdaman yung looseness (hindi ko alam ang tugmang term) na supposedly dapat kong maramdaman after all these years. May katext naman ako nung time na yun na nilalandi ako. Bat ba hindi nalang dun mag-focus yung attention ko instead na maalala ang nakaraan?

Pero eventually, okay na. Pwede naman palang lumipat nalang sila ng table diyan, papahirapan pa 'ko. Pinaubaya na nga kita e, alam mo yun. Kahit na alam naming lahat--ibang tao and my closest friends--na someday, magbe-break din kayo. Hindi sa bitter ako. Inevitable yun, okay. Tsaka for sure si girl ang makikipag-break. Yes, I am so, totally sure.

Basta. Akala ko keri ko na. Keri ko naman pero hindi pa 100%. Insufficient closure kasi. Oh well.

You wanna know what I think? I think that those who claim that Paranormal Activity isn't scary at all are just pretending to be tough, showing-off that some creepy indie film didn't scare them in the slightest bit. It is scary! But if you're tougher, as in for real, the effect is just overnight. You still think about it a bit in the morning though. And make these left-and-right head shaking movements accompanied by a little tongue clicking. (Just like saying "Oh my G, that was one helluva movie and it scared the demons out of me.")

I know, I'm talking about myself.

Pero srsly, it is creepy. And it sinks in. This is the first movie that actually had this effect on me. I normally laugh at movies with supernatural themes. But this one, nah.

So, I belong to the bandwagon now.

A henna, that is.

Jinn wanted me to do a french manicure for her but I think I made a mess T___T SORRY!!! I'LL DO A BETTER ONE NEXT TIME LOL.

Then we got lazy and lay around her bed and fooled around wtf. Started taking stupid pictures to "represent" certain people HAHAHAHA I thought that was kinda fun 8D

Drying nails?


Then she started being kiddy D8

THE 'WTD' FACE 8D!!! No one else knows the meaning behind this besides us, Lester, Christine and strangely Steph.. HAHAHAHA. Well, Lester started it.

We watched Music Bank on KBS World with Chee Kin later in the evening. SUCH GOOD PERFORMANCES! I enjoyed Taeyang, 2PM and SS501's the mosttt. SS501 won their winning chart this time again XD! I couldn't really choose between 2PM and SS501, but I'll still be very happy if either one of them wins first place <3 I LOVE THEM SFM!!! ^___^ MAMA performances are on tonighttt, CAN'T WAIT~! XD

We went to Pizza Uno for dinner after that with Lester, Nick and Mr Black  (LOL IRIS) Ranessh! I haven't seen Ranessh since Lester's birthday party in August, SO HI THAR! 8D Had so much laughter coz of them hahaha XD

The Liang "bros". It's Nick's birthday today so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Sorry I can't make it to your party today  

 
Nice 8D


Then uglee almost like WTD LOL. (Taec's puffer fish face 8D?)

 
Calamari rings shared with Jinn

 
My beef carbonara which looks really unappetizing BUT SO DAMN TASTY XD!

 
♥

So bored and tired and internet is shitting with me. I think I'm gonna go finish up those strawberry shaved ice thingy my mom bought from the 100 yen shop now... 

[edit] Oh yeah, thanks HERH! XD *runs* 

soulsmoker

it was a good night. a time where all the rantings about life was expressed. it was a good therapy for us all. and then after the conversations, i realized we were all victims of love. at some point in our lives we have succumb to loving that one person who made us feel alive , got hurt in the process and then they moved on, they were able to, i was able to before and i will be able to do it now.

i actually feel better now, at least now. i would not know about tomorrow, the pain might come again. when i am reminded of him, the things we used to do, the things we used to share, the things we used to say, the places we go to. but that is  a part of it. i have to pick up the pieces or no one else will. i will have to decide to move on, get a life, start from scratch, mend myself. this is going to be very difficult but i know it is possible.

tonight is that night. and although it may seem as difficult as crossing the ganges river. i will do this. i can do this. i am stronger than this. i am better than this. the decisions i  have made lately are but momentary lapses of judgement, though i do not regret them,, they made me realize something. when u hit the bottom, there is no other way but up. 

i love him, love him just the way he is, no buts , no ifs. and  i will always do. but i have to get on with my life because the world will not stop revolving just to pry on my pathetic private life. there are a million people in this planet and some are going through so much worse than this, i should be thanksful. there is so mcuh more to do. my identity should not be attached with him. my happines should not be because of his existence. my voice should be back. my zest for life whould be reborn.

i am done wallowing on my own sad emotions. yet. i will still love the rain. the grey sky. the sad sound of birds humming in the meadow.  the lonely boat in the river. the falling of brown leaves. the breeze of summer. the silence of the night. the sorrow of poets. the journals of my past.the  tragic love stories. the melacholic music.

and yes. i was looking for a miracle. i found it. in an unlikely time and place.

to be continued..

gemini

Ops next year pa ko mag-e-eighteen, so hindi ako ang may debut, kundi friend ko. Sa debut, may attire. Kasi kasama ako sa 18 treasures eh, so bali parang formal party siya. Meaning, ako'y magde-dress. Omg. Here we go again. Transform muna ulit ako sa girl. Iipunin ko na ang kikay-ness ko tomorrow.

At aayusan raw ako ni mader. Badtrip. Hindi pa naman bagay sakin yung mga mine-make-up niya sakin. Chinchansoo na naman ako. Hay.

At good luck nalang ulit sa paa ko dahil naghe-hello na sakin yung 3-inch shoes na pinapasuot sakin ni mader. Good luck talaga.

Wala pa rin pala akong regalo. Pati di ko lam pano papunta dun. Hay.

Hindi ko lang din alam kung pano kami magki-kitakits ng friends ko dun. Di namin alam kung san yung bahay ni friend eh. Di ko ma-imagine na naka-dress ako sa jeep. Ano ba naman yan.

Sana enjoy bukas. Sana parteyyyyyy! \:D/